a new phase in life

I officially declare this blog closed for I have reached a state of enlightenment, hah! This will end the old chapter of my life and begin a new one.

I’ve decided to make this entry a normal one without the abstract symbolic language (haha, so I won’t scare Susheel in to thinking I’m suicidal). Anyway, I’ve lost the symbolic touch to my blog cos I’ve let go of that something which caused the weird entries…which is a good thing.

I’m truly free this month and actually I’ve been really free since my graduation, thanks to the tortoise speed of my future employer. And since, I’m so free, I challenged myself and will continue to keep to the challenge, to try new things in life. Fun, fun, fun plus satisfaction.

First challenge: taking classical guitar lessons. It’s something new which I had always wanted to try plus I get to look cool, haha, do I? This pic was taken recently by new found close friend, who’s also a neighbour (Phooi Yee) at a small scale music school concert. Well, I wasn’t perfect; some mistakes here and there. But I tried 2 new things: learning it and performing in front of an audience. So, I’m satisfied.

Nowadays, PYee comes to my house almost every evening for long chats, hehe; entertaining. Really enjoy the visits. Hugs to her as an addition to my cluster of close friends.

Oh, there’s another new close friend too, named Cybo. Only Cybo knows why I gave him that nickname, haha. So, Cybo, welcome to my life. Always listening to all my crap without complaints. Hugs!

Haha, not forgetting crazy Yi Jun, my long lost kindergarten friend who’s my new friend too. She and her spontaneous plans to ask me out. The swim we had was fun, hahaha, the literally spine chilling water.

I certainly haven’t forgotten my old close friends. Big big hugs for you guys, you know who you are. And for my family too.

I end this normal entry with a smile. A smile that symbolically ends the old phase of my life when I wrote weird blogs. Smile and the world smiles with you.

5 feet 5 inches (165cm)

You are a confident, ambitious, and active person.
You are also very radiant. You have a sunny personality.

You are quite successful. You are a smart worker - not a hard worker.
At times, you can be vain and cocky. You have a lot to be proud of.

You are about as tall as the average French woman.

I think and I wonder, but then again…

I feel and I imagine, but then again…

I realise and I awaken, but then again…

I trust and I believe, but then again…

I know and I understand, but then again…

I forget and I erase, but then again…

I dream a lot but then again I might be quite sober.

I am lyrical but then again I might be quite literal.

What’s to say but my life has a little much dosage of “but then again”s.

Grab a piece of A4 paper or any paper of roughly the same size. Crumple it to make it a ball and keep it in a tight fist.

You are the hand. The paper is something you really want to hold on to.

Let go of the paper ball completely and you lose it but your hand no longer hurts. The ball stays round.

Hold the ball gently and you keep it but you need to put in some effort to maintain the position. The ball is still round.

Grasp the ball tightly and you definitely keep it but your hand aches while the ball is no longer a ball.

You are 60% happy

You’re definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there’s always some more happiness to be squeezed.

True? Think so.

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you’re happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it’s very hard to get you out of it.
It’s sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.

Your strength: Your warm heart

Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions

Your power color: Black

Your power symbol: Musical note

Your power month: February

There are many things I would trade for something which I really want, but then again I have to think of the consequences.

Though I truly long for it, I need to be rational.

When I’m rational, I find myself thinking through every nook and cranny of that issue.

And when I think, I really think, till I lose consciousness of what is happening around me and what I am doing at that moment.

So I backtrack and stop thinking, and now I put it aside in some corner in my brain.

I feel relieved, but then again…where’s the solution?

Lands of green connected,

Each side protected,

Experience fragmented,

Memories recollected,

Emotions affected,

Persons neglected,

Escapism elected.

The sun sets and night falls,

A dark blanket casts over,

And all but the moon is visible,

Contrasted by the discolouration,

Will the shadow be here tonight?

Will it not? Will it choose to be invisible this time?

Though it’s role is to follow,

It doesn’t always.